That ray of light

I want to start by saying that my last blog post was kinda depressing. Although real, it was more on the sad side. I want to take this moment and shoutout to all those who supported me and told me how much you could relate, and also told me its ok, these things happen. It really means a lot to me that you are reading what I have to say and walking with me through this journey. I know that there is a long way to go and these are just pricks along the way but you just being there and encouraging me is worth much.

I have a dream.... and I can see it in my head. It feels as though it's so close that I can touch it... but I know there are stops that I have to make, turns I have to take and unexpected things that are always gonna come my way. Success is nothing without failure. Happiness is nothing with sorrow. So yes, I'm willing to go on this journey and take you along with me on the roller coaster called life. I fully accept all that comes with moulding myself to be the best at what I do.

Referring back to my last post again. Last month was rough and the month before that was even worse. I made a bad decision and I really regretted it. It probably had to be the worst time of my life. I was so close to losing hope but something in me just forced me to hang on to that thin thread and stay focused. Well, I want to tell you now that things have gotten a little better. The first thing I did was let go of my step-by-step plan and learned to relax. I learned to focus on the creator and the author of my life. Next, I took it one day at a time. Keeping in mind the bigger picture, I asked myself everyday, "what are today's goals and how much can I really get done?" I was real with my expectations and didn't think I can be superwoman in accomplishing more than 100 unrealistic things in one day (Yes, I did think of Lilly Singh when I said superwoman). Third and most important, I took a deep breath ever so often and laid back to let the "big man" do the worrying. I strongly believe in the phrase "You do the working and let God do the worrying."

Today was an exceptionally good day as I was expecting something good to happen, also realizing that it could go horribly wrong or nothing at all could happen. I was waiting for a phone call. I should tell you that the wait for potential life changing things can be nerve-racking. The phone call came. It was a long conversation. I'm not sure if I'm going to pursue it or not but I when I hung up, I definitely had a good feeling and my hard work had finally been noticed. Just noticed. It felt good. So right now, I'm thankful. I'm grateful. I'm at peace. What tomorrow will bring I don't know. What the future will bring, I most certainly do not know.... but one thing is for sure. This peace I have today is more than enough for me.

Adios! Talk to you soon :)