Walking into 2017

Looking back at 2016 brings back so many emotions. It was a year of letting go some relationships that held deep emotional value, letting go of projects that I thought were of high worth, and making some of life's toughest choices. I learned truly that without pain, there is no gain.
I do, however want to say that in every step of the way, God has been there for me. Every time my mind said there possibly could not be another way, God came in and said, "this is the way. Walk in it." Every time I chose to obey and walk in it, the pain that came with making that decision was non-existent. It felt so light putting my trust in one who I know would not disappoint and who sees things farther than what I see.
Knowing what He wanted me to do was not easy. I had to struggle to find the will of God. I went through physical pain, mental stress, emotional exhaustion and just plain hitting a wall, knowing I can't move anymore. Amidst that distress, one tear from the bottom of my heart, screaming for help mixed with full surrender is what I could send to God. He heard it. He actually heard this lowly voice of selfishness and misery. It was amazing and I'm utterly in an awe-filled state of the thought that God would help me. I'm filled with thanksgiving for the way God has me in the palm of His hands. Words can't describe how beautifully God took care of everything in such a short time.
The very last day of this year, going into the new year, I choose to make a conscious decision to always choose His will. Not what I have for myself and most assuredly not what other men have planned for me but only what my Heavenly Father wants. I choose to know and trust what He has for me. I choose to follow Him even when it is hard and my strength is failing. I choose to walk with Him to the undiscovered worlds and the hidden spaces. While I take a deep breath and let go of everything I think I am, I make a conscious decision to hold on to God, who holds my future.